In each moment look at your discontent, your constant becoming, your dissatisfaction, your conflict, your obsessive preoccupation with the past and the future, and your resistance to now. The self is a mind-made construct, which believes thoughts about how you are somehow separate from the life that you see around you. This separateness, because it is a dream, creates the illusory sense of not enough. This sense of lack sends you searching in time, which means in mind.
You will never find fulfillment on the level of time because you are searching only within a dream of thought.
The main goal of this dream is to keep its end from happening. "You" are just one of the ideas within that dream. The idea of "you" is searching for the idea of "fulfillment". This whole system is designed to continue the insanity of becoming because an illusion cannot find another illusion. True fulfillment is not an idea. It cannot be found through ideas. It is beyond ideas.
- - - - - - -- - - - - - - - Scott Kiloby, Loves Quiet Revolution(page 44)